My Cleansing...

Today emotionally and mentally was not a good day...The point of this Blog if no one else ever reads it, was for me to share my joys and struggles openly and honestly...Today is one of those days where I honestly need to be transparent... I had to go to the doctor today,because I honestly felt like emotionally I was loosing it... Finances aren't what I need them to be...Children have me stressed..the Human child as well as the K9 child... I honestly felt like I wanted to get in my car and just keep going...I haven't felt this way in a long long time, and honestly it scared me... I am the type where I need control in my life...and when I don't have it, I cannot handle it..and honestly it scares me shitless... I've always felt tears are reserved for the weak...But after today,I realize being able to cry and cleanse is truly for the strong at heart...

What do the lonely do...

They plan out their lives....It finally hit me today to stop living in fear of the things I know that God has in store for me...Fear and Doubt has clouded my view for quite some time...but no more...